it makes me feel...
loathesome.
hateful.
sentimental.
nostalgic.
I hate it how the air seems so familiar yet too curiously dangerous to feel.
Its mysterious intoxicating yet rancid closeness to me is so seemingly helpless.
Its crisp broken leaves, the baren cold branches they leave from.
Is this how autumn makes you feel?
God, this is hellish cacophony, isn't it?
anyway, what do you think?

look at this. i'm not appreciating the imagery of art, rather its imagination through text. look at my favorites, it's filled with text.
autumn really gets to me.
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i love the autumn air. it really has this deep feeling of an omen, of nostalgia. all these

memories are so stinging. hearing the leaves rustle again irks me. it bothers me.

its gales of winds can be so strong...

yesterday at homedepot, I disappeared into the plant aisles and I went to the restricted

area (noone was there) and when I entered there was a great burst of chilling wind. I

wondered around and it was the first time that the plants ever felt so silent, secretive,

lurking. I was so nerved out, I ran back.

Watch me, autumn. I'll get you back.

BTS... yeah just made that up for randomness and boredom. It means
<BACK TO SCHOOL>
3 days left. Starts Wednesday.
I still need my calculator, schoes (see that? I was about to spell school. yeah. again random.), pens&aper, and maybe some clothes. I haven't bought any in a long time. I'd rather get handmedowns that are at least decent. I abhor clothes shopping. I simply can't find anything I like.

Jackdaws by Ken Follet. He is a brilliant writer! Jackdaws is a dedication to the 50 women who were sent into France to blow up the telephone lines as secret agents by the Special Operations Executive. 14 of the women gave their lives to accomplish that mission. I'm actually near the end where Flick (Felicity) Clairet had shot Stephanie (an undercover french women posing as Bourgieuos, Madame Lemas. Jaime Lemas was an allied agent taking in agents and caring for them at her house in the rue du Bois. Stephanie is a mistress to Dieter Franck, who is a Gestapo Intelligent. A merciless investigator and ruthless torturer (that sounds weird).
Then Dieter had came back to his lover whom he just realized he could never live without. At first, he was interested by Flick from seeing her at the bombing of the Sainte-Cecile church, carrying her injured husband across open fire. Now he has the vindication to kill her.

You should read the whole book, it's hardly heavy reading at all!
...
came back. parents hovering over me, reading what I was typing. I hate people hovering over my shoulder. It's discomforting.
Summer Reading..
I haven't finished actually.. But it's only the summary that I have to read (Gilgamesh). I read past all the character descriptions and acknowledgements and history, and I already know it will be just as boring as reading the book. 11 tablets to read. It'll take me only minutes but it's still unappealing to look at.

anyone ever tasted salmon cream cheese?

anyone add their birthday to deviantart's database?


also how's everyone's morning?
recently i've been bike riding around 5-6:30 in the morning... exploring the streets of my town, getting lost in few, and unfortunalely falling haha
met some morning people, such as joggers or doggers, and some unpleasant and .. rude peeps haha
and I just hate how some sidewalks end with a curb instead... I almost flipped on my bike xD
wat are you doing early in the morning? besides sleeping and dreaming if you do wake up that early?

hmmm my camera should be fixed in two more days or so
summer is boring... as always-I really wish I had signed up for extra classes or something at the school -_-'
I even missed capturing the fireworks
and now summer reading... which i'm procrastinating for about a month now.. i'm sure it's not all that
but it's fun reading all the other books like...
Locked in time
Unforgettable
The Pigman
The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox
The Wall and the Wing
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time
The Miraculous Year of my Reappearance
Th1rteen R3asons Why
Shattered Mirror
That Was Then, This Is Now
The Pearl
Silver Kiss..
and much more haha
btw have you guys read
Gilgamesh or Bullfinch's Mythology?
-latas

btw, insomnia is really a horrible thing... i haven't slept in two days and i'm not the least bit tired.